when we make time to learn


“Any fool can know. The point is to understand.”
― Albert Einstein

“The first person you have to resurrect is yourself”
― The RZA


IMG_6694it all starts with knowing me

i wasn’t really planning on share this, but i am enrolled in elena brower’s ELEVATE mentorship program. like so many of us, i sign up for a lot of online course seeking more knowledge, often i don’t participate enough to make it worth it. so when i signed up for this mentorship, i came into to just listen. sure, participate if i can, but listening to what another person has to share is also incredibly valuable.

so i find myself in the space of listening and making space to learn. no expectations but to know and greet myself where i am today. not where i should or could be, but simply allow the space for awareness. when we find ourselves allowing space to learn, we can’t help but learn about ourselves. each gift of knowledge comes through our mental filter, our experience filter, and can’t help but shift us in even the smaller of ways.

the knowledge i seek is within me and i have always know this to be true.

i am reminded of this and that there is bliss in learning. about myself. about new topics. expanding and trying new things. moving out of my comfort zone.

like trying a new yoga pose or a new style, we expand when we allow space for it. what are you wanting to learn? how can you make time to gain more knowledge? about yourself or something else you are excited about?







c’est la vie

“In chaos, there is fertility.”
― Anaïs Nin

“I accept chaos, I’m not sure whether it accepts me.”
― Bob Dylan

IMG_6273this life is crazy, but it’s good

the last two weeks have been wild, there is no other way to say it.

solo time with the boys and my dad coming to stay and help was a good lesson in “kids say the damnedest things” and chaos is a natural state. this is life. it’s my life. it ebbs and flows, has traumas and dramas, and it is both joyous and incredibly exhausting. chest la vie.

the work is always in progress, i am a work in progress. i am making peace with my inadequacies and the places i see as my short comings. i don’t do “time” very well. i want to be more organized but it feels so tough for me. i have been feeling off, but i haven’t jumped into anything that will make me feel balanced (if this sounds vague, it is. mostly just my physically being tired, but my body is slowly growing intolerant of certain foods too). accepting that i can be content and continue to learn about myself/be a work in progress has taken time, is still taking time. this is life. c’est la vie.

yoga is everything. always will be. my practice is equal parts breathing slowly over my cup of coffee and doing gentle twists or downward dog to make space for my heart and release some tension. i don’t necessarily miss the vinyasa days, but i do miss more community. it is in the future for now, but summer is rapidly approaching and i respect that my attending classes will have to wait until fall. making my home practice more important. c’est la vie.

i want my boys to feel safe in their wild. as elementary school time was approaching, i realized that conditioning bug to sit for extended periods of time isn’t necessary yet. being “wild” (moving while learning, dancing, being interactive, being extremely social) is part of his learning and i am not ready for him to disconnect from that yet. so more montessori for him (and us). we also are working trusting our bodies. trusting our sense of feeling full. trusting when we are tired or our body hurts. not dulling the innate knowledge. i am working on that too. c’est la vie.

this is life right now. c’est la vie.



Every day life..

“Things change everyday. With each new dawn, it is not the same world as before. And you’re not the same person you were either.”
― Haruki Murakami

IMG_6007just a regular morning walk to school

IMG_5981little alters everywhere

IMG_6036playing with friends in the “dino ribs”

IMG_6052hide n seek on the streets of downtown austin 😉

IMG_6031bear chilling with some yoga babes for a quick sukha photo shoot

every day life is filled with laundry, cooking, getting two boys out the door and into the world, along with some coffee, yoga and some writing.

every day life looks a lot like “quick quick slow.” it looks a lot like the cha-cha and often is a dance of some sort. a dance of getting boys dressed, of making coffee, and some meditation in during the chaos.

every day life is fun, frustrating, beautiful, messy, and just life. it just is.

i haven’t been capturing as many photos, but the ones i have been getting make my heart soar with the wonder that my life has become. these small humans, the man, my community, spring time and austin, well, the combo is absolutely fabulous.

where is the joy in your every day life?



bliss in parenthood

“You are the closest I will ever come to magic.”
― Suzanne Finnamore

IMG_5762taking a reset by picking peaches off our tree

it isn’t always easy.

in fact most things aren’t, but it is especially true in parenthood. i struggle (as i am sure many people do) with the “balance” of being a parent and being myself. they are one and the same, yes i am always me, but the requirements of parenthood asks me to be above and beyond myself. which is where the struggle lies for me.

recently, i came to the realization that it is important for me to make peace (find bliss) with being a mama when i need to be a mama and take time to work when i am not being a mama. sure, it is great for the boys to see me working. it is also not a good example for me to be on my phone or laptop, when they are wanting to go play or wanting attention. how unfair is it to ask them to wait, to be quiet, to give me time/space when the time i get with them is really so limited. work will always be important (and truthfully, there will always be work), but so are the days when my boys want to be with me. and so i am choosing the bliss of just being with what is. the bliss of being a parent.

of course, this applies to so much more than parenthood, we can say that when we give our attention to one thing at a time (instead of the overly hyped multitasking), we can find the bliss of what is, of what is in front of us. work at work, be at home when at home, and when with friends/family we be present with them. which of course takes work and effort, all things do.

i am shifting my days, how i work, how i take time for myself. i am finding the bliss in parenthood by just being present.



the art of making space

“Some people believe holding on and hanging in there are signs of great strength. However, there are times when it takes much more strength to know when to let go and then do it.”
― Ann Landers

IMG_8839space: in house, in body, in mind

all cards up front, i am writing this after 3 hours of “cleaning” the house. by cleaning, i mean purging, going through ALL the stuff. holy wow.

in our world today, we value collecting stuff. buying stuff. gaining things. we place our worth with what we house. there is a whole market for storage, literally a whole other place t put your stuff when you don’t have room in your house for it. so what about the clearing space? how can we focus more on making space?

i love going through our things and purging: all the baby stuff is on its way out, clothes that are not longer worn but are still in good shape, recycling the tickets we get from parties or other knickknacks. clearing space. not just for more stuff, but for the potential of what space gives us. space gives us: more places to play, more room to create, space to be bored, to find imagination. for me it gives some space for opportunity to show up.

what if by letting go, i allow the universe to bring me what’s next?

what if i let go and more joy/bliss walks in?

for the boys, it makes space for more playing. more imaginative. an actual physical space. physically clearing space for them.

for me, it’s more about the potential. leaving room. not having to spend extra time putting clothes away or sorting toys they don’t play with. keeping house work to a easy task vs a constant overhaul. everything having a home. making mental space for me.

the art of clearing space means that we all feel a bit more breathing room. whether it be for imagination and play or breathing space and room for other important duties! don’t forget to sage, palo santo, or just spray some lavender mist around to clear the energy too 😉

happy clearing space!



bliss of imperfection

“We are all wonderful, beautiful wrecks. That’s what connects us–that we’re all broken, all beautifully imperfect.” ― Emilio Estevez


my striving for “perfection” started long before i stepped into motherhood.

those early years of yoga proved to ignite this unspoken desire to look/do/act/be perfect, no matter how silly it sounded or how much i may have denied that was my goal. yoga some how brings that out in us. maybe it’s the ego fighting to keep control. maybe it is just innate in our western culture. maybe we just all grew up competing so we bring it to the table in every thing we do.

creating the perfect shapes, making vinyasa look easy. perfecting asana in record time.

these bits of the practice are so counterintuitive to what yoga really is, being present with right now. sure having “goals” isn’t necessarily bad. in fact, working hard and practicing daily is great. having pressure to “succeed” or striving for some sense of perfect is when this idea of goals can go terribly wrong. whether it be being in the perfect downward facing dog or emit the perfect vision of a together mom, ignoring our imperfection can lead to disaster.

no one is perfect.

period. end of story.

when we accept our imperfection, wearing them like a crown or at least not hiding them, this is when we can really live a content life, live our practice, and just be able to see things as they are and not as we are. every one, every single human, has imperfections. we all are working on our own shit. we all have cracks, but that is where our light shines through. our imperfections are what make us beautiful. make us wonderful. make us human. how can you embrace your imperfection today?



food bliss

“The only time to eat diet food is while you’re waiting for the steak to cook.”
― Julia Child

IMG_4920roasted beets anyone?

we eat all the time.

three meals a day, not including snacks. if you’re like me, that means you are feeding your face up to five times a day. how much of that are you enjoying?

yes, food is fuel, but it is also important to taste your food, enjoy your food, to make it an experience in your day. i like to sip my coffee, taste my food. see my family enjoy something i have made. and homemade can be relative. we all have different loves of cooking: from no love to hell yes let’s cook.

so pick some stuff you like to make, it can be simple/easy. it just needs to bring you joy, joy to make and joy to eat. here are a few things i love:

IMG_5140pizza night always makes the fan happy!

IMG_5167quick kimchi cucumbers! from: it’s all good

IMG_5169yes i like food in jars 😉 tangerine juice with vanilla coconut yogurt! the best!!

take some time today and make some food you love. or that your family loves. put some music on and let the love infuse your food.



balance of light and dark

“If we had no winter, the spring would not be so pleasant: if we did not sometimes taste of adversity, prosperity would not be so welcome.”― Anne Bradstreet

IMG_4895light + dark, always present

spring is often thought of as the time of renewal, of growth, of shift. it is also a time of balance.

a balance between night and day.

between inner and outer.

balance of home and work.

spring equinox shows us the equality of day time and night time. evenness of the light and dark. the earth is showing us that we are always shifting. that we are cyclical. winter is the season of internal. of reflecting and looking at ourselves. so when spring arrives we make the slow move to find balance between showing off like the blooming tulips we all want to be. if we rush too fast into outer world actions and forgetting about journey inward, all is lost on our growth. if we look at what we gained during our winter period of reflection (having new year being a big part of winter is no small moment of taking a look at your life), we can grow as humans. it allows us to really be in the balance.

inward time. journaling. solitude. walking in nature.being.

outward time. socializing. hobbies. doing your work. growing.

spring, while it feels good to shed the winter coat, is not just the jut through the dirt (darkness) and showing your flashy blooms. but a time to reflect on our inner works and make those works show. what have you learned this winter? where have you grown? and how can that show up for you now?



it’s not always bliss and let go

“If your goals aren’t synced with the substance of your heart, then achieving them won’t matter much.” ― Danielle LaPorte

IMG_4921sometimes life is blurry

as a gal on the search for a life filled with bliss (or samadhi as the yogis call it), i’m here to say that it’s not all bliss. nor rainbows or kittens or puppies. and for sure life does not always hand you the shit you want. sure, there are lots of times that life is all of the above and hands you that magical cake to remind you that you deserve dessert and much much more. but it isn’t enough to just ASK for what you want. not enough to just put it out into the universe  and wait to see what comes to you. that’s like going on a fishing expedition and not really caring whether you catch a fish, a lizard, or an old boot. it’s all the same to you. trusting that something will happen and forgetting about it isn’t going to necessarily give you what you want.

lately, i have been in this kind of auto-pilot mode.

i ask for what i want without any effort or energy spent toward it and yes, for a bit all the good juju was coming my way. it didn’t last. it didn’t last, because i put no work towards it. i made no effort, no movement to say “yes, this is what i want. how do i make it stay?” it’s like saying, “i really want the house to be clean.” and then just sitting there hoping something will happen. i’ve been doing just that. asking. putting it out there. but then not doing a damn thing about it. just waiting for something. anything to happen. it’s not always bliss waiting when you have already been invited to take action and make life happen for you. bliss is there, but life gives you the best when you put in a little effort.

i also have learned that while i can ask for the world, it’s super helpful to have some priorities of what i want the most. it really helps having an order of importance of what you want to create. so here it is, in order of importance, where my bliss priorities lie:

  • to be present with my boys, because this time is short and they are only little once;
  • to be a loving partner and good friend to the man. we don’t always have time to connect on the daily, but i know that needs more of my priority;
  • teaching the most amazing restorative yoga classes ever. but mostly, making them more about a safe space to come undone. it’s the undoing that allows us to grow and evolve;
  • writing books that help bring the yoga practice into the rest of our lives! sure, mat time is great and important, but hey, those other seven limbs help us navigate a life well lived. i want to encourage you to live your best life;
  • a clean house. a messy house = a messy mind, but taking 30 minutes every day to just clean up some will help (at least me and my mind) keep some of the crazy at bay;
  • eating more fruits and veggies, drink my 8 glasses of water every day, and move my body more. self care is super important an especially as a mama, since no one else is going to do it for me;
  • and lastly, read and write every day. a poem or a chapter of reading helps my creativity spark and writing whether it be journaling or a new book, uses that creativity so it doesn’t get stagnant.

while these things may not be revolutionary, there are parts of the bigger picture. they help me keep bliss as a every day occurrence even amongst the toddler breakdowns and four-year-old  fits. life doesn’t always have to be easy. or even always happy, but asking for it to be and then doing nothing to make it so seems like a waste of time to me 😉