Yoga is all about balance, not just the physical on one foot kind, but the balance of movement and action. If you move backwards, you move forwards. If there is a lot of flowing and vinyasa (linking breath and movement), then there should be time spent reflecting and in stillness as well. Even the “sister science”, Ayurveda is based completely on balance within the body, using the foods one eats, the activities one does, and of course the seasons we are in.
Spring is a time of growth, of dusting off winter (sorry those in the north that still have snow), and preparing for warmth and the heat of summer. Spring beacons us to get outside and to change up our winter habits. Our yoga practice switched from comforting forward folds of winter to the sweet detoxing nature of twists. Often times, my yoga practice intensifies a little to clean out what winter built up (or purge the remenants of all the bread and heavy foods I so crave in cold weather!) like how the earth warms up, I like to remind my body the warmth of spring.
Lately, I haven’t been feeling as much pull to my yoga mat. Not to say that I have t felt like doing yoga, but that my need to physically practice for more than 15-20 minutes is gone. I am preferring instead to sit quietly, to work on my breath, and explore more off the mat aspects of yoga. Baking has become a moving meditation for me, walking with Bug is my asana, and gardening is my self care. My love for down dog, puppy pose, or cat/cow is still strong. Plank is done daily, even with a little boy climbing on my back 😉 But asana is no longer what I crave most. Balance is what I’m looking for between off the mat yoga and on the mat movement or meditation. I guess really more balance in life would be good too 🙂
So yes there is work on balance in my practice which of course is directly related for my need for balance in my life. Being a mom is a full time job, 24/7, no turning it off. I’ve been trying to find/create balance between the stay at home mom Liz and the yoga teacher Liz that needs to promote, write etc. Ironically, April seems to be the time of “challenges”, yoga teachers inspiring others with a daily challenge to post, share, tag, and check out others. I long to be a part of these, but my desire to be as much as possible hands-free in front of Bug is winning. Balance. Life is short, I only have these first couple of years with my sweet boy before he will start school. Free time will be more abundant. Until then, well mindfulness of what I show him is important and balance between being mom and stepping away. Leading me to the biggest thing, asking for help. Stating I need an hour, 15 minutes, or a night out each week will save my sanity and make me a better mom, yogi, and partner in crime.
So what is my Sadhana? First of all, I love this definition of Sadhana “a spiritual exertion towards an intended goal”.
Wel, my intended goals (a revamping of my birthday goals given that April would be my half way mark and I’ll be frank, I’ve pretty much screwed up this years goals. They are in the shitter, but that’s ok):
– sign up for at least 3 teacher workshops to continue my yoga education (and get a much needed write off for my taxes)
– enroll Bug into a preschool, or at least get him on the list
– read at least one yoga book to every two fiction books (any suggestions here would be awesome, I love books!)
– take 15 minutes each morning to write, blog if time permits in the morning, and spend no mor than an hour online once Bug is asleep. There needs to be more writing in my day, including just for fun 🙂
– go swimming once a week. It’s warm enough here in Austin, I love the water and so does bug. We need to be swimming at deep eddy weekly 🙂 this will also help us connect a little with nature again too.
That’s what I got for you tonight! Balance, it’s needed in order to survive, to function, and to find bliss. Life is tough and can be unhappy when you let things get too far out of whack.
Have a great weekend and I hope to post a weekend recap on Sunday night!